emo.tional

i'm in a wierd place. I don't like anyone. I hate to start a blog with that sentence, but that's how I feel. right now. I'm just sitting in my room, trying to think of something to write for a number of papers. and I have auditions this week, which makes me want to vomit.

I may have stepped foot on the eastvold stage for the last time ever. so sad. I was very aware as i said "back for good" tonight, that that might be the last thing I say on that stage. and now I want to cry. How can it have been four years?? already. it's insane.

ad I have capstone and everything to do, which has been hard to find time for with the play. ugh.

Ugh. I dont want to be all depressed feeling, and I know its just because im sad about the play being over. I have so many emotions running around in me. and I feel like someone has taken a stir stick and just, mushed up my brain. I can't think straight. Also I can't start my homework until two am. how horrible is that.